Hi! I’m Patcine and I’m a wife and mom to 5 awesome kids. (2 of which are my handsome bonus sons)
Ryan and I had our first baby together in 2005, and we named him William, after his late grandad (Ryan’s dad). Shortly after we welcomed our first baby girl, Maria, in 2007. They were 18 months apart. 

In 2008 I found Jesus. Not that He was lost or anything, but I was. I had everything that I thought my heart ever desired and then some, but I had this aching and yearning for something to fill this void in my life. Well, that missing piece was a relationship with my Savior. I had grown up attending church and hearing all sorts of things about God, but it never really clicked until that day in July of 2008 when I experienced His power and presence in the most tangible way.

I’m so thankful that He is in control because He knew that I couldn’t have survived what was about to happen next without Him. 

July 21st of 2009 changed the course of our lives forever. It was, is and always will be the most devastatingly awful day we’ve ever and hopefully will ever have to face. My 3 yr old son left this earth and this mama’s arms much too soon. I don’t like to talk much about his death for various reasons, it still causes my heart to race and mind to spin. (If you would like to read more I wrote a post about it that can be found (here) BUT don’t click just yet.. Finish this first;)

(To read more about Will’s life click on the ‘Our Will‘ tab above)

I am now a part of a group of moms that nobody wants to join, yet my Faith and trust in God has only grown deeper. Not that I haven’t had my moments and questions, there’s been a lot of wrestling but I couldn’t walk this grief stricken road without Him; without the Hope of seeing my little man again. I realize that not everyone has a relationship with our Savior, seeing that just 8 years ago I didn’t even know what that meant. But I encourage you to stay and look around, I have no doubt that you were brought to this page for a Divine purpose.

We welcomed another little girl Mollie Kate in 2010 and she couldn’t have come at a more perfect time..(though while pregnant and grieving I was uncertain about whether God knew what He was doing) 

My family left the only home we’ve ever known in Vandalia, Ohio in 2013 and moved across the country to Texas! What a scary yet exciting adventure we are on! It’s tough living so far from all of our families, but I have no doubt we are right where God wants us. Comfort zones can be prison cells if we aren’t willing to take leaps of faith and say ‘yes’ to God!

I am happy to share my journey with others in Hopes that God can be glorified and others can begin to look for Purpose in their pain.

{I started a non-profit ministry in 2015 called The Will to Choose. It provides families with financial assistance from the unexpected costs of bereavement. T-shirts with scripture are also sent as a gift to parents to remind them of God’s Promises and Love.} To request a shirt go to ‘t-shirt ministry’! To help with this ministry you can purchase from a selection of shirts under ‘shop’! 
{A HUGE thanks to Andrea DePompei with DePompei Designs for my new and amazing blog layout!}


my little man on Easter 2009