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Birthday Revelation 

Posted by on Sep 20, 2017 in Uncategorized | 0 comments

Outliving my child was not something I ever dreamt of or desired. It was actually never even a thought in my mind until Will died. My 3 years and 8 months with him was filled with love, joy and squeezing every last ounce of fun + life out of each day. It’s crazy to think I’ve existed on this earth for 35 years; yet those 3 years with him &...

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Prayer

Posted by on Sep 1, 2017 in Uncategorized | 0 comments

If I’m being totally honest..I often times catch myself praying as if God is a magical genie in the sky who’s main purpose is to grant my every wish (desire). ‘Do this, give me that, don’t let this happen, help them’ etc.  I actually feel quite helpless at times because I get caught in the train of thought that convinces...

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Spring is coming

Posted by on Mar 18, 2017 in Uncategorized | 0 comments

The changing seasons used to absolutely paralyze me. After great loss we tend view time as ‘before _____ & after ______’. -• And as the earth continued to spin my world continued to feel more shattered + broken. Spring was tough because as all the dead things began to bloom back into life; I was still trying to catch my breathe and wrap my...

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This is Christmas

Posted by on Dec 26, 2016 in Uncategorized | 0 comments

This is my reality. One that leaves me standing over the grave of my son on Christmas Day and any other day. That always leaves our family pictures incomplete + bittersweet. A reality that I wrestle(d) with accepting + digesting for years.  A reality I carry with me that can destroy or propel me with a single thought. Because of Jesus, the Christ...

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Christmas with Grief

Posted by on Dec 13, 2016 in Uncategorized | 0 comments

Christmas with grief. (Originally posted December 2014.. It’s been edited for this repost) Most people don’t like to address such sorrow during a time meant for so much joy. But it’s there, the pain, the ache, the heartbreak. You can’t ignore or tuck away the obvious & fresh absence of that missing loved one, in my case, my...

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What else? 

Posted by on Nov 17, 2016 in Uncategorized | 0 comments

I’ve been so tempted today to shout the question ‘what else can go wrong?’  Its been building the last several months and today with some more disappointing news it was the last straw.  I always try to see the positive in everything but honestly sometimes there isn’t really any positive and that’s just life. ...

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